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woke up this morning, looked out the window and was greated by a gorgeous blanket of snow<3 despite the snow, my sister still had to go to school, which sucks cos we had epic plans to build a giant snowman in the coldesac ;]. seeing as she’s at school, i don’t want to look like a saddo building one on my ownnnn. like jonas on cbb. :L

mum and dad have just gone out to see claire and her teachers at school for her ‘yearly review’. which is always a load of crap. they point out all the positives, but they bang on about the negatives so much it’s ridic. also, the ‘negatives’ are stupid. last year it was;
“she’s too quiet in lessons”
“she needs to be more socialable at break/lunchtimes”
“she needs to ask for help instead of attempting to do it herself”
“she is currently a E in maths. by this time next year she needs to be a D or C grade”. :| the last one, fine i understand. but yeah.

pleased to say she HAS improved greatly since last year. claire’s more happier now, more confident, and is having alot of good days. but knowing them, which i do very well, they’ll say “no she isn’t”. sorry, are you with her everyday at home? do you talk to her everyday? no, you don’t. so i’ve stressed my mum & dad to argue back if they say she’s still “insecure” or whatever.
and yes, she needs extra help because of how she is. and she’s getting it from what she’s told me, so why make an issue of it?
aswell, in the past year she’s made LOADS of new friends - she didn’t really have any before. when i was there she was hanging around with me and my friends, but as soon as i left she was a bit :/. y’know, alone and shiz. but she’s got so many good friends now which is fantastic. so, if you disagree with that too, you need to open your eyes a bit more, and venture out of the staff room once in a while to see for yourself.
when i refer to ‘you’, i’m talking about mrs church, teacher and the woman in charge of SENCO (special needs thing). she is rather patronizing, to say the least. and she’s at these meetings and talks utter shit really.

the main reason why i didn’t want to go, anger/upset aside, is because some woman in charge of special needs students from my old college is going to be there. long story short, everyone at school has got it into their heads that claire is going to gloscol. :| she went to the open evening to have a look, not make a decision right there and then.
it’s bothering me because they haven’t been clear with claire. claire’s really good at art, like amazingly good. and her ‘dream’ as it were, is to leave school, do an art related course, and go from there. she even talked about galleries and stuff bless her (: but they want to put her on this “life course” thing, where they help you be confident, get a job, what insurance means, all that. which is good, fair play. but claire hasn’t been told this. so bless her heart, she’s thinking she’s off to do art, when she’s not. well, she has to do this course first. anyone else think that’s harsh? or is that just me?

the main problem i have with that damn college (yes, the grudge is still there) is that the way people who are like my sister/worse, are treated awfully. this is the bit that makes me upset. ;( the amount of times i’ve seen grotty little chavs, bimbos, or general fuckwits heckle the disabled kids in the corridors, canteen, and even walking around outside is disgusting. i’m not exaggerating here guys, i the things i’ve heard and seen is appaling, and i don’t claire to go through that. i was even intimidated, and it had nothing to do with me. you’re an adult, you’ve got to learn to deal with it yourselves. the teachers don’t give a shite about what you do, it’s a “do it yourself” attitude. fine, that’s what college is about, but argh.

i’m so scared for her y’know. she doesn’t understand things like we do. she gets upset/angry easily if she feels threatened.
i’ve said this to mum and dad, and many friends who agree with me, but it’s just an observation. nothing will be done to make that place nicer.
;(
i want what’s best for her, cos i love her lots. i want her to be happy and safe. and she will NOT get that there, seriously.
we’ll just have to see what happens when mum & dad get back.
/pathetic rant.

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